Brave Sarah

After all the scandals we’ve endured with politicians and their affairs or lack of good judgment and values, including the governor of my state New York (Mr. Spitzer), I was overwhelmed with the candid conversation Oprah (my idol) had yesterday with Sarah Ferguson and her awful choice of attempting to accept money in exchange for offering accessibility to her husband the Prince, our politicians can learn from Sarah as she made no excuses for her awful behavior and what she faced to move forward in her life putting this time behind her.   I was home early otherwise I don’t get to see Oprah and I couldn’t not watch every moment as it seemed surreal that this had really happened to someone so naive and yet seemingly so powerful you’d think having everything life would ever want to give her.  How could she do this to herself and family yet I found myself thinking could I have ended up doing something like this out of desperation, what would it take for a seemingly wonderful lady, mother, friend and former Duchess to stoop so low and will she ever recover and be alright, could I or you ever have done this as well given the chance?

There are so many women who hold low self esteem for themselves and as Oprah explained she obviously was spiraling down to a place many of us fear we’ll sometimes enter, the world of hating yourself, as Oprah alleged, being “spiritually bankrupt” devoid of reality merely existing not comprehending the truth of your actions, which in the end cause you to self destruct. And yet this brave mother, lady, women took full responsibility for her actions never making an excuse for her dealings instead asking forgiveness and being willing to begin at the bottom, pondering her fears, mistakes, grateful her daughters will stand by her journey, helping others realize they can make it back to a safe place in the world after making a mistake, it may take time and a lot of work, however, I felt she was up for the challenge and in the end her fall might help us, thus while mending her life watching her become strong again, better then ever, can Sarah become an inspiration to many who have reached similar low points in their lives becoming the example of who we claim to be as humans, forgiving when we use bad judgment, forgetting, letting go offering a fresh start to this brave women who seemed to beg forgiveness from all of us, hoping we’d wish her success in her new life in addition  will the Queen let go of her anger as she did with her son Charles when he willfully cheated on Diana and caused a turn of events which none of us could have predicted or will Sarah be different and the Queen not offer the same to her as I think she has with her son.

Good luck Sarah, I’m so glad it was Oprah you spoke with, non judgmental, compassionate, fair and hopeful you’d be alright because many of us have done things we wish we hadn’t and it’s a time to learn and emerge a better person, especially when your willing to share it with others (strangers) hoping because of your fall, we may be able to improve our lives, acknowledging you never know what life will give you tomorrow so don’t be judgmental as someday you may need the compassion and kindness I hope we are able to give to Sarah.

Oprah and Simon he admitted he’d suffered from depression

Most of us have times when we feel down and out and I found it refreshing that Simon Cowell acknowledged he suffered from depression from time to time and had also lost everything financially at age 30, had to move in with his parents and started over.  It was inspirational that he didn’t give up and became more successful then he could imagine coming from such a low point in his life didn’t mean he couldn’t make it all over again, because he did and I was empowered by his words, as it means any of us can hit bottom and come back when we try and don’t give up.  Oprah on the other had challenged Simon when he mentioned he felt lucky as she thinks luck is non existent that it’s all about you and being prepared when the opportunity presents itself, therefore I wondered if you agree and think there is no such thing as luck, because after I write this short post, (because of guilt) I feel badly that I haven’t written and our site is still up, I’m heading out to purchase a lottery ticket since I feel lucky today, how about you.

And if you had a chance to see Oprah today, how did you feel about her interview with Simon I thought he was amazing and I even liked him, as he seemed so average and not at all as arrogant as we think while we watched him during his talent show.  I came home at four o’clock today as I have an awful cold and it was one of those rare occasions I get to see Oprah in action, she’s quite a lady, if I had a wish it would be to talk with her a few moments there is so much going on in her head thus imagine what I could learn from her even though I’m older and supposedly wiser (I don’t think so) big chance so I’ll forget that thus,  I’m off to the store for that ticket and I hope your all doing well.  I’ll still be visiting all my blogging friends as I learn so much from all of you, we all do blogging is amazing.

Getting ready to shut down grammology

I’ll be meeting with my partner Linda, sometime in the next few weeks and we’ll close grammology something I’ve been thinking about for the last few months.  I’ve really tried to learn more about our site and how to increase traffic however, it’s just not me and I’m not going to torture myself any longer attempting to do something which adds stress to my already hectic life.

I’ve learned much over the passed few years therefore a big part of me is feeling bad that it’s come to this finale and the end is near however, for my sanity we have to follow through and get this baby down take a break from this commitment and decide what path I’ll choose later because, in my opinion when one door closes if your open to change, often something new and better comes along who knows what’s next in life when things calm down and what I’ve learned from blogging is immeasurable and will stay with me forever.

Because of grammology one of my life dreams has been accomplished which was to be able to write my thoughts and opinions, share with others what I’d be thinking about and dam if this site didn’t just do that, while allowing me the freedom to say whatever (good or bad) had been on my mind in fact I wish I had more time for writing as it’s been better then a psychiatrist for me. In addition, while visiting other blogs I learned so much about other lives and how they often paralleled mine it assured me I wasn’t alone and even suggested other ways to deal with issues I had, which sometimes was a better way then what I’d ever done before with my problem.  My greatest joy during this time was making friends with other bloggers, reading your comments and thoughts which I knew came from your hearts.  Thus, I’ll truly miss you and think about this special time in my life with my partner Linda and her son Miles who headed us down this road and into the blogging world with no regrets and only wonderful memories I shall never forget.

I’ll let you know when we’ll say goodbye I hope I can figure out how to keep your email addresses so we can stay in touch, continuing to see our lives evolve maybe facebook will be the place although I can’t seem to understand that darn site either however, there is always the hope that I’ll figure it out in the future and we’ll be able to stay in touch because all of you have been an unexplainable treasure I hope to keep alive in my world forever.

We’re on vacation for the week, staying in the Whiteface Lodge in Lake Placid, New York, the weather is wonderful and the facilities are magnificent equating to a very peaceful and satisfied experience and already I’m wondering how three full nights and days have already passed.  It seems as though time is merciless as to how quickly it goes by and I’m feeling anxiety as I realize I’ll return to the real world all too soon filled with pressure and retiring peace as we go back to our normal everyday lives.  I’m not complaining I’m wondering how you find the balance realizing most of us wish our worlds were filled with vacation and good times instead of work and obligations I know  it’s not just me, however today I wish I’d win the lottery and didn’t have to think about anything except what would make me and my family happy.

Every time I see the commercial for the New York State Lottery “a dollar and a dream” for just a few moments I fantasize what I’d do if I won, understanding in my heart, working doesn’t guarantee happiness, having money doesn’t guarantee happiness, in fact I’m not sure what does thus, could you put it in a sentence for me as to what it would take to be happy at least in your world?   Because I began reading a book given to me by my friend Beverly in July of 08 just after I finished six months of chemo and it made me a little crazy in my thoughts the book is   “You Can Heal Your Life” by Louise Hay and I’ve read only 40 pages and dam….I think I have some healing to do how about you?   Do most of us have past lives or things we wish never happened or we could change do you approve of who you are or is it time to get it all out on the table so your able to go forward with a healthy mind, I always thought I was there, that I accepted myself even liked who I am, although today I’m not sure, so I wonder would you consider sharing your comments and once again, getting me past this uncertain time in my brain, or should I just stop reading the book?

I was pondering how many bloggers ever thought about shutting down their blogs and if so, what was the major reason to stop blogging, as it’s always gave me so much satisfaction and yet sometimes, I’m overwhelmed by the obligations it creates.  So I ask am I the only blogger who feels this way or do you find yourself thinking there’s not enough time for me and maybe blogging is the thing I have to give up therefore, please share your thoughts tell me what you’ve done and how you feel about making the commitment to blogging or have you considered quitting because life’s become so intense you had to give up something and blogging might be they only thing you can choose.

A while ago I wrote a few posts about blogging for grammology sharing how it had been one of the best experiences of my life, it’s done more then just allow me to write, it’s given me discipline, I’ve learned more about expressing myself, better skills at telling my story by sharing my deepest thoughts, asking you to give your reactions which gave me support for my happiest and sometimes darkest times thus, if this question is confusing it’s the same for me and I’m hoping you’ll shed some light on my dilemma and tell me if this is normal or am I alone in this quest to determine just how important blogging is in our lives.  Please take some time to consider the question and explain what blogging has been in your live and if the obligation ever made you consider giving up your blog and if it has did you.

My daughter and my nose hairs…

I was picking up my grandson Noah for an overnight today, I’d had a really busy week (that’s why no posts) however, I knew if I got Noah I’d have a wonderful grandma, grandson night so he was worth the effort.  We met at a store as my daughter lives almost an hour away and we try to meet somewhere in the middle to give us each a little edge on the driving.  I gave her a kiss and she stared a little at me and I said what’s wrong, which was my first mistake as I remember a few years ago she explained that I needed to change my eyebrows as they looked like they were ready to fly away.  To tell the truth I wasn’t mad I like it that Sherry and I are able to tell each other the reality about what we think and then move on, so that’s the way it’s been for us forever thus when she pointed out what seemed to be a flaw in how I applied eyebrow pencil to my eyes and I did some research (asked others in my family) and friends and they all sheepishly agreed and no one was ever able to be straight forward and tell me the truth, that is except my brother who a few years ago also told me I wore too much purple eye shadow on my eyes.  Please don’t think I have a weird family because if you think that, you’re right. We always say what’s on our minds and no one ever cares because we like knowing where we stand and in the end we’re satisfied with the results, truth and confidence, as no matters what we think, we accept and make the changes when necessary, if we disagree it’s alright too and then we still respect the others thoughts.

And now the nose hairs, so when Sherry saw me and starred it’s because she noticed I had them and politely thought I should know and suggested I purchase a personal nose clipper and start cutting any hairs which grew where they shouldn’t be.  So the next time I do a video you know the drill, I’ll make sure there are no flying eyebrows or nose hairs I should be concerned with.  And if you think you need to ask someone you can trust, about your nose hairs just do it….

Have a great weekend, and wishing you better weather then Western New York, as it’s going to be cold and rainy, darn I hate that, where is the Sun, I always feel so much better when the sun shines therefore hoping your weekend is blessed and filled with joy.

Carly Simon still an icon in my opinion

Carly Simon, looks so good and when I listened to her video song “Your So Vain” it brought back wonderful memories of my younger and better years, and I wondered how could she have made that record so long ago, where did the time go, and how did I get so old so quickly. And now she has a new album out “Never been gone” thus, I have to  buy it because she is still sounding wonderful, hence if you want to listen and see her before you head out to the store here’s her link http://www.carlysimon.com/   and see if you agree that she’s just as beautiful today as she was in 1972  and if your really creative you may want to enter the contest and make your own video singing her song with your version, you have until April 15 to enter, isn’t it ironic that she picked this date when our taxes are due to end her contest, you can win $10,000 and meet her in person it sounds like such fun and what’s really weird, even at 63 I think it would be so satisfying to meet and have a chance to talk with such a lovely lady who after all these years still sounds incredible.  So give her a chance, visit her blog and click on the contest to see if this is your lucky day to meet and spend time with Carly Simon, you never know unless you try.

When I read the Huffington Post this morning and I saw one of the headlines which stated Gabourey Sidibe,” Precious the Oscar nominee”, may host Saturday Night Live, I thought there’s hope for the average person in the entertainment world and I hope they keep it coming.

Since I’ve been blogging (over three years), I’ve often wanted to write, and blast anyone who thinks being beautiful, skinny or rich is the only way you can be happy because it’s so out of whack with reality and when you think about the many celebrities lives you often find out they anything but happy and many times, they don’t even think they’re good looking and seem to always be searching for inner peace and self confidence.  Think about how often  we read about superstars drinking, using drugs, and being in the spotlight for all the wrong reasons, I think most of them don’t know how to enjoy a quiet and peaceful night at home with family and friends, instead they need recognition and thrills,  thus my point, this young women could be a role model to our kids and teach them that true beauty begins inside, and if you believe in yourself, others will feel the same about you plus achieving your life’s goals you need to take that first step into whatever it is you desire or dream you can do. I suspect Gabourey never thought about failure and continued to move forward, confident life and her future was there for the taking.

So I celebrate her success, and I hope she does host Saturday Night Life, and that there are more shows in her future and perhaps Doctor Phil will have her on his show to tell our children and parents, what motivated this young women to truly understand that a successful life begins within you and your feelings about yourself. And in my opinion simple thoughts, trusting and approving of who you are, and accepting confidence is a gift we give ourselves which resonates from inside of our heart and souls and minds.  Thus my very best to this precious young woman who I hope we see a great deal of in the near future, and that her world continues to blossom and she becomes a role model for our young people to know, respect and want to emulate, a hero of sorts defying what we normally think is the road to success and being popular, putting a nail in the coffin of the old saying you have to be beautiful to make it in this world, when beauty is simply a word and this women is a real person going places she could only have dreamed of first.

Poor Sandra Bullock, can we ever believe anyone when they say I love you?

Alright maybe today isn’t the day I should write this post, as I’m irritated with people in general and then it diminishes my good judgment so that I don’t say what an idiot Jesse is and I hope he has diarrhea for the rest of his life, now that wasn’t so nice however, I must say it felt good to wish Jesse James what he deserves the creep.  See what I mean I can’t think of anything good about a jerk who just can’t seem to keep it in his pants, OK there I go again spouting negative thoughts about that despicable person who insisted on being married to a lovely lady breaking her heart, being so arrogant he was sure he wouldn’t    be caught and see all this gossip become a free for all to the general public, and Sandra would have to endure the shame as though she’d done something wrong before she will heal and eventually move on.

Thus, is it men or women who we blame, after all it takes two to tangle and this guy wasn’t sleeping by himself was he, and those dumb women who think it’s a score to catch someone’s husband, I wish them what they deserve and when they finally land a husband should I hope they have the same destiny in their lives.  No I can’t say that however, I do wonder what we can do to teach our children, lying and cheating is not right and we have to understand values and having an affair is wrong and no matter what any of us have done with our lives in the past, we need a cleansing and end to this kind of behavior and I hope it happens soon. After seeing what Tiger was doing and now Jesse there appears to be no end in sight, and how in the hell do we even have a chance with marriage when so many of our peers who have such low self esteem and values that whatever feels good to them in the moment is what they do.

Therefore, my deepest sympathy to Sandra as it will be long time before all this scandal subsides and I’m sure a lot of bimbo’s will take this opportunity for their 10 minutes of fame, and we’ll have to pray she is a strong lady who gets through this without thinking all of us are like her partner and those heartless women, because it’s not alright to sleep with someone else’s spouse.  Tell me what we can say to Sandra as bloggers (guys and girls) who realize all these sexual encounters are hurting the future of good marriages, or do you think being monogamous is over, a thing of the past, God I hope not.

After reading about the settlement that Oprah was able to work out with her former employee I wondered how she ever desires to enter the public arena again, and I don’t mean because she should be embarrassed, I wonder why she doesn’t hate everyone as it seems someone always wants to take a piece of her no matter what she does. Was it always this way some reporter or journalist  looking for a picture, or able to verify a rumor, in order to claim their way to fame breaking the heart of the person they are writing about, with no thought of their privacy even when it’s a personal issue and should never become public. Shouldn’t there any limitations to what we need to know about the rich and famous and were there unwritten areas that we considered so personal, no reporter or journalist went there just because of common courtesy.

Seems to me as though we’ve reached new lows with how far they go to make a quick buck on celebrities and I’ve decided you couldn’t pay me to be famous because in a word I’d tell them to F-off and get out of my life, and we know that would go over like a lead balloon. Therefore I better not ever get well-known because they wouldn’t like my qualities under paparazzi, and God bless Oprah who always seems to try to do good for the human race, and instead ends up on the short end, with people looking for her flaws or mistakes instead of focusing on all the wonderful things she’s given and done for those who have less. Therefore, blessings to Oprah Winfry and if I had her life, I’d never be in the public eye again; we just aren’t worth it and in the finish we usually hurt her in some way oblivious to what we’ve done. Hence, stay innocuous and enjoy your private life without some idiot hiding in a tree to take your picture in some compromising or personal situation so they can become famous or make a fast buck, destroying you life, it’s discouraging and yet we know the skies the limit and if your prominent your it, be ready for the worst because it sells everything and that’s the ultimate goal today to be on top number one at any price.

So here’s to Oprah, and I hope she’s alright as she’s an amazing women who has helped and influenced many, and continues to be a role model for us,  and there aren’t many of those around today thus, I pray she has peace and serenity in her life, as she deserves it.