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27 September 2009 18 Comments

Doing it my way

lights_camera_action It’s been a very frustrating week as nothing has gone the way I’d hope since I returned from vacation and I barely caught up on Friday as I left the office wondering what’s it all about this life I call mine as it’s never going where I planned and is often where I couldn’t have imagined at this time in my subsistence thus I wonder do you feel the same way and when you lie down in bed at night and try to close your eyes and not think about all the dumb choices you’ve made in your life and in its place think positive, good times, love and peace so you can go into slumber and have a pleasing sleep? Well lately my slumbers are anything but satisfying I keep focusing on all the things I’d like to change and I wonder if you do the same thing when the lights are off and the only thoughts you have are the ones in your head, it’s your time and chance to have a great conversation with someone you know very well (me/you) and probably will agree with everything I think, yet by some means I seem to be filled with anxiety and fear that I won’t squeeze the rest of my life into the time I have left and I don’t agree with anything much I’ve done lately it’s like I’m on a train taking all the wrong turns and every time I attempt to change my path I miss and get lost again. Could my feeling be normal do most of us go through times in our lives worrying that it’s going by so quickly we’ll never get it all done and if so, what do you suggest to slow down the hands of time because not having it my way is beginning to irritate me. Interestingly enough though I also think it’s important for you to know even at age 63 having all my wisdom (hah) and experience (yaw right) I’m suppose to have that from time to time I could use a little advise myself.

By the way no vacation pictures because David’s been off all week as he’s in distress with his back and the pain for him has been excruciating, therefore I’m wishing him relief as anyone who has any kind of back issues knows when your hurting from degenerating back disease the horror and discomfort you experience is beyond description and he rarely, if ever, complains thus it has to be awful for him not to come to work for a week so get better David we miss you (I really miss you) and I pray for a solution so you’re alright and never have to go through this again.

My Best…grammy

18 Comments »

Loz said:

I’ve said this a lot in many posts on my blog. The one book that totally changed my perspective on life was “The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz. read that if you haven’t already my frined.

# 27 September 2009 at 5:21 pm

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# 27 September 2009 at 7:04 pm

OldOldLady Of The Hills said:

As you know, I am fifteen years older than you and still just trying to take it all One Day At A Time! I honestly do not spend a lot of time on regrets because it really gets me nowhere and brings nothing into my life “in the moment”….I think all we can do is keep putting one foot in front of the other and try to be gentle and kind to ourselves. As to sleeping: Well, about 24 years ago, my dearest dearest soul mate died and I found that if I left the TV on at night—whether it was a movie or some other show that took me out of myself—and then, I could sleep. That is STILL my way. It works for me, and I’m sure it might not work for many many people, but it saved me from chewing over all sorts of stuff I could not change and helped to take me out-of-myself so I could get some rest. And it still does.
I hope things get to a better place for you Dorothy….and I hope you find a way to get some rest at night–”Let Go, Let God”—-Whatever it takes, my dear.

# 27 September 2009 at 7:44 pm

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# 27 September 2009 at 11:09 pm

Peter McCartney said:

Hi! I also have regrets, far too many to mention here of course. I’ll leave that to the next time I go to confession. Boy! It’s been a long time since I’ve done that! Now, not trying to sound like Solomon, harping back to what we could have done better is like bashing your head up against a brick wall, so try to avoid it as best can. What there is left to in the time we have left is to pass on our life experiences, both negative and positive, so others may learn from them. I wish you well and what you’re feeling right now is quite normal. After all you are human!

# 27 September 2009 at 11:58 pm

C said:

Grandma D,

Thank you for all of your comments on my writings, they are all very much appreciated.

I live in a condo on the cliff of the marikina river, which overflowed and broke our floodgates. Everybody thought our cliff was going to give way and go down with the flood waters…

So many people have perished…

We still don’t have any running water, and we’re looking at a new typhoon to hit in 2-3 days…

All the people on the other side of the river…they not there anymore now…they’re all gone. This is very hard for me to take in…

# 28 September 2009 at 12:16 am

june said:

Hi Dorothy!!

I totally understand where your coming from on this one….but..regrets are wasted energy and time. Turn the negative into a positive and tell yourself that if a choice didn’t work this time then it wasn’t for the want for trying on your part. Tomorrow is just that, an other day, an other chance. None of us know how long we have left, it doesn’t work worrying if we can fit it all in, because the answer is we won’t!! There will always be a load more things we would have liked to have done.
Life is now, so take each day as it comes and if at the end of that day you can say “I gave it my best”…..then it was a good one.
Remember getting older gives us more life experience to call on but even if we live to be 2000 (as if we’d want to!!) it will never make us infallible…we are after all, only human.

# 28 September 2009 at 6:01 am

Raven said:

I can sure relate to this post! I almost had a panic attack reading it cuz I worry about a lot of the same things. Especially when I’m laying in bed at night. It’s like this all encompassing panic that threatens to drown me in it’s intensity. I don’t know what advice to offer you since I’m dealing with it too and don’t know what to do about it. Maybe you need a change of some kind. It’s never, ever too late to change your life.

I hope that you start feeling better soon and you find the advice you need.

Raven

# 28 September 2009 at 7:00 am

A.Marie said:

Hi there! This reminds me of something my own Grandma used to say, “The Past is in the Past….let it go.” My dear Grandma was soooo smart! I sometimes will lie awake wondering if the decisions that I have made, in the past, have been the right ones. But, you know what? God will make the crooked paths straight!

# 28 September 2009 at 10:55 am

Maria @ Conversations with Moms said:

My husband was out for about 3 months with severe back pain, it was terrible for him. I hope David heals quickly.

# 28 September 2009 at 2:59 pm

PJ said:

my dear friend, big hugz to you first off. i used to regret things that have or haven’t happened in my life, but when i finally realized that there wasn’t anything i could do about the past the regrets became obsolete. everything that has happened in my life has brought me to the now. even though some of the things weren’t always right or always nice or always pleasant, they happened, and i learned something from them. are there lots of things that i would like to do, damn right, but if they don’t happen i will be all right with that too. i appreciate life right now and enjoy the wonderful simple things of nature.

i don’t know what kind of things you are talking about that you feel you may not squeeze into whatever time you have left, but i would say to think about how important those things are to you. i mean, seriously, if they are something that you feel absolutely must be done, then do them. if not, then forget about them. we are here for such a short time if you look at the big picture, to spend that time worrying instead of enjoying is kind of a shame. chin up sweetie and enjoy. much love to you…xoxox!

# 28 September 2009 at 6:30 pm

Chris B said:

Dorothy,
Gosh, I think you’re on the same page as I am these days! Get a good night’s sleep and that will help, I know!! Take care.

# 28 September 2009 at 9:53 pm

Diane J Standiford said:

No sleep=haunting mind. I agree with The Little Old Lady from the Hills, I used to fall asleep with police scanner on. Sometimes our brain needs SOMETHING to work out besides nasty dust bunnies of life. I am big on doing to make a regret go away, or at least give us peace with it. make it into a positive for your days ahead. Let it push you to do something in a different way, a way you will never regret. Hugs

# 29 September 2009 at 9:37 am

OldOldLady Of The Hills said:

LOVED the pictures, Dodothy…..It looks like a Wonderful placw!

# 30 September 2009 at 9:45 pm

joared said:

I don’t know when it happened, but I ceased to expend energy thinking about changing what I can’t change. I do enjoy thinking at night before I go to sleep, but generally my thoughts are all pleasant — intentionally. At least for now, I’ve evolved into a “going with the flow” state. I think we all go through periods of fretfulness to relative calm, so just have to make it through which sounds like what you’ve been successfully doing these years, so stick with the ship.

# 1 October 2009 at 4:00 am

dorothy (author) said:

Thanks for all the great advice I am feeling better and you’ve helped especially knowing that I’m not alone. We all seem to handle these times differently and it helps a great deal to hear how we all get by these times.

Dorothy from grammology
grammology.com

# 3 October 2009 at 7:29 pm

joared said:

I should have added, that sometimes it’s hard to recognize what I can change and what I can’t — I do sometimes err in that regard.