Some say Karma is your destiny

With everything that’s been going on in my life over the last year, I’ve been wondering whether my Karma was a tarnished horseshoe hanging over my door. Karma is referred to as your luck or destiny.  Having little to do with your faith, rather what you’ll encounter as you live your life.  Some people always seem lucky and seeing others whose lives appear easier makes you wonder why not you?  Why do you always have to work so much harder then others?  There is no real answer it’s just the way things flow and in my opinion what Karma you have at the time.  Thus recently I’ve felt very negative thoughts all around me.  With little I could do, I would pray and hope I would encounter the better days soon.  I’ve sensed this darkness for months, even before being diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer.  I was determined to get through it and keep praying.

 Yesterday I felt the change; as though I was surrounded with light and good fortune.   My heart felt radiance and I’m convinced my fate is different.  And with all the lessons I’ve learned I’m prepared. So as it happens I’ll share the results and what I experience.  Excited to let you know how it feels after surreptitiously thinking I had all this dark light and negativity floating around me.

Many days I would ask God to get me through these times, and help me fight the obscurity. Then I’d wonder when the curtain would lift. It was at work and in my home I knew I had God’s grace to stand tall in adversity so I’d get thru it though somehow the mood was always there.  Yet, I was hardly able to feel truly free from the misfortune around me.  Therefore I probably fed the fires and even kept them burning. Somehow yesterday they were gone; mysteriously erased from my thoughts and life.  Today I feel empowered and renewed.

All of us go through times we don’t understand and find difficult to endure.  Be strong and be brave.  Have faith in yourself and listen to the lessons being lived at all stages of your life.  Understand life is predetermined, however, what you learn and how you react is your free will.  And there in lies the confusion.  Consider if you smoke and get sick was it fate or was it because you smoked?  And yet, there are many who don’t smoke and still get Cancer or lung disease.  However, if you are able to quit your giving your body a chance at a longer life isn’t that worth thinking about?  And if you can quit shouldn’t you?  Yet, if you think about those statements there is much to decipher.  Is it fate for the person who gets cancer and never smokes or is it free will for those who smoke and get cancer? I’m not completely sure, I only know yesterday was a altering day for me. 

I felt my life adjust as I was driving home from work.  The light and the negativity were gone.  And God was kind enough to let me feel the transformation. I’ve always asked God to help me see his message.  And I’ve mentioned before it’s going to happen at his time not mine. Yesterday was his time, and my fortune.  I felt it, and I know it.  Now it’s for me to embrace.

So for everyone who wished me well?  Gave me strength, by sending their prayers in addition, I have a Karma. This will fill my life with great fortune.  I’ll share the feelings and tell the stories.  I don’t necessarily mean my fortune will be filled with money.  Although if I’m supposed to win the lottery and it’s the big one so be it……

 Most important in my world is my family and friends.  And because sharing is like taking medication for me; I feel better and stronger when I finish writing my post.  Knowing some of you will tell me what you think and I’ll learn from you as well.  And perhaps my experience will help you in some way.  Even if it’s only to laugh out loud and say that lady’s a nut…. Now she’s talking about Karma.  Well yes I am and I’m convinced mine has changed.  I’m going to capitalize on this positive energy while I continue to live my life.

So if you think grandmas aren’t happy to have good Karma, think again.  If I was a gambler I’d go to the Casino tonight.  And although I joke this is really important to me.  I’ve read a lot of books including The Secret   and what you feel is what you get.  If your thinking you’ll have a bad day you probably will.  So from today forward, nothing but good news and happiness for this grandma…